It's been like a week since I last posted something on here.. I know, it's really bad. But to be honest, I've been feeling uninspired, uncomfortable and confused, so I took some time off just to think. Now I'm back again.

This morning, while drinking my cappuccino and watching Sex and the City, I got to thinking about settling. I mean, some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything else than butterflies.

I guess most of us are defined as the last one. I am.

Are we simply romantically challenged, or are we sluts?

Sweet dreams,

- Summer Hope

What shape our lives? Mistakes?

Earlier today I got to thinking about making mistakes. I mean aren't they what make our fate? Without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities. People come into your life and they go. But it's comforting t0 know that the ones you love are always in your heart.. and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away.

Inspired by Carrie Bradshaw.

- Summer Hope

Well

I feel uninspired.

That was all for today.

- Summer Hope

The moment of change is the only poem.

It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.

I need to...

- Summer Hope

Relationships.

Earlier today I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you, you love, well, that's just perfect!

I hope you're all having an amazing Sunday. I am!

- Summer Hope

The more you try to forget someone the more you remember them.

I spend last night with my parents and some of their friends (yeah, I know - such a fun Saturday night!) and I noticed something.. Have you ever noticed how adults often compare their love to that of two teenagers? That's because our love is crazy, senseless, and unlimited. It's the most ridiculously, passionate love there is and once we've had it, we'll spend the rest of our lives searching for a replica of it.

"Let's be the couple to prove that teenage romances do last forever :-)"

I'll go watch like 10 SATC episodes and then run all my errands.

Kisses from

- Summer Hope

I just hope one day you see me and when you do, your heart stops.

Today and yesterday's view from my room. Makes me want to never look away.

The past nights I've found myself in bed, reliving every glance he gave me and every word he said. And even though I've been trying to get over him for quite a long time now, I wonder if he ever lies ind bed and thinks the same things. I don't know if he's over me and I don't know if he's moved on, but all I know is when I go to sleep at night, all I can dream of is one day being in his arms again.

I just want to dive headfirst into his arms, give in to his good looks and charms, sleep all day and love all night, like we used to. Forgive every stupid, pretty fight. I wanna do more than sit and remember. I wanna relive all the moments where you made me shiver.

I guess with love follows tears, lonely nights, regretting and forgiveness.

- Summer Hope

That's life...

You know what? Tragedies happen. What are you gonna do, give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks you got to fight like hell to make sure you're still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better and that something is worth fighting for.

Even though my heart's in these tiny pieces right now, I'm sure something great is going to happen to me. I just gotta believe it. I'm going to watch at least 6 episodes of Sex and the City tonight, just to get my mind off all this - and it for sure will. Sweet dreams or a beautiful nightmare!

Kisses

- Summer Hope

Admit you were wrong because you know what we had was right.

Like 10 minutes ago, I thought my world fell apart.

I was looking at M's Facebook-account (don't ask me why!) and then I suddenly saw: "M is in a relationship." Tears ran down my cheeks, my hands started shaking... I couldn't help but to cry. I realized how much I miss him. How badly I want him! But it was too late now... I mean, I thought it were. Apparently it was an intern joke, so a minute after it said that he was in a relationship with his best friend and I found out it was just a stupid joke.

After minutes and minutes of thinking... I came to the conclusion, that no matter what, I can't forgive myself for leaving, until I can forgive myself for letting a guy like you slip away.

I regret. But can I change this? Can I get him back - the one I love?

- Summer Hope

Imagination and fiction make up more than three quarters of our real life.

Is it just me or do we spend too much time pondering the future? Why don't we just live and enjoy this moment to the fullest, since it'll never come back again? I mean, people are always talking about their future. Future job, future husband, future place of living... My friends are even pondering about what they want to do after High School. Am I the only one who tries to keep my thought off the future, and instead live for this moment? Have we becoming obsessed with the future?

I just woke up with this thought on my mind and felt like posting it, before forgetting. I'll go get some breakfast now, before going to school.

Kisses

- Summer Hope

* "Imagination and fiction make up more than three quarters of our real life." - Simone Weil

The thing about being young.

So here I am... Laying in my bed at 11 pm, thinking about life. What is it that makes me feel so damn restless and thoughtful in the nights? Not to mention confused. I feel so damn confused. And what am I gonna do with prom? My date, M, dumped me 3 weeks before, you know.. Thanks a lot!

Anyways. When I sat in History class today, thinking about life for an exchange ;-), I looked out of the window and then on the class... I realized I was the only person in that room with her face filled with the beautiful sunshine from the sun outside the window. Did that mean something great is going to happen? Or that it already did, but that I just haven't found out what yet?

Another thing I realized today, while watching this episode of Sex and the City where Carrie, Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte goes to New Hamptons for the summer and they realize they're not young anymore... I am sixteen years old, in High School - the most amazing years of my life is passing - I am going to enjoy my life 100 percents!

That starts tomorrow. Sleep well everyone.

Kisses and XOXO's

- Summer Hope

Tonight's gonna be a good night..

Today's Friday, which means I would normally be going out with the girls and boys, to a club or a private event. But - tonight, I'm doing nothing more relaxing than going to the movies with my best friend, to watch "Did you hear about the Morgans?" And what's the reason for that? Well there's literally nothing going on tonight - everyone is doing "something" so going to a club would be boring, since none of my friends would be there. So I'm just having a relaxing Friday tonight.

So school today went pretty good. I mean, it could've been a lot better, but it's just that.. Yeah the boy I had a thing going on with, M, dumped me last night. I mean, not dumped me like official, and to my face, but he told a friend, who's my best guy friend N, that he thought I was just having fun and that I didn't want anything serious, so he wasn't sure he would continue with me anymore. You should've known how much that hurt! Cause nothing of what he said is true. N came home to me last night and was like, I have really bad news I need to tell you, and then he told me everything that M had said. My life was ruined.

Anyways, let's not talk about it. I'm trying to get over him, without meeting, talking or contacting him.. I mean, I'll do my best. Now I think I'll take a nice, long and WARM shower followed by a couple of episodes of Sex and the City.

Hope you all had a better day than me. Have a great friday! Go drink some delicious drinks for me and take care.

Kisses

- Summer Hope

Who am I?

I'm Summer Hope and I'm a sixteen-year-old girl, who, like every other teenager, is struggling with boys, looks, friends, family and love. I've made this blog to let you guys follow me in my life - this is the first chapter, and I promise you; there'll be a lot more.

That was all for today - you'll hear from me again tomorrow. Now I'll jump into bed (well I'm already in bed, but I will go to sleep) so that I won't be that tired when I wake up in the AM.

Goodnight and kisses

- Summer Hope